Unwanted opinions

09Sep10

Saturday 22nd August 7pm

 I don’t know why I felt that Fergus deserved anything. He is mean, mean and rude. Benji had to go in the office today so I was left kicking my heels at home. I’d pretty much spent the last few days avoiding Fergus, but when I saw him walking up the street with Tiger I decided it was the perfect time to go and face him. As I stepped out of the front door Tiger nearly knocked me flying as she bounded up to me and flung her arms around me. “Rebecca! Can I come and play at yours? I’ve got lots to tell you, I’ve been at my grandma’s and she’s been poorly and then we had to help her move and oh please can I come to yours?” “Not now Niamh, upstairs, you need to unpack your bags” “Ah but Daddy.” “But Daddy nothing, up you go. You can see Rebecca another time.” I kissed Tiger on the top of her head and whispered “Do as your daddy tells you” and then watched her trot sulkily upstairs leaving Fergus and I on the doorstep. “So, your mum, is she ok? You found somewhere for her?” “Don’t pretend like you care Rebecca.” “I do care…I… I’m sorry…” “What are you sorry for? Sorry that you are spoilt? Sorry that you behave like a petulant child? Sorry that I had to leave my sister to look for my mothers’ nursing home to rush back to you just to find that you’d shacked up with someone else?” “I’m sorry that I hurt you. I love him Fergus.” “Catch yourself on Rebecca. You don’t love him. You don’t know anything of love, not real love. You love the drama, the fairy tale. You are fecking impossible to please because you don’t live in the real world you live in the movies, in the romantic books that you read. And I’m glad you went off with your man, because I could never have lived up to this Prince Charming ideal you have. I’d have only disappointed. So good luck to you Rebecca. I hope you’ve found your happy ever after.” And then he went. Flounced up the stairs leaving me a little shell-shocked by the front door. Impossible? Me? Humph…the man is crazy. I’m better off without him.

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